08 Is Over

damnnnn what happened this year with me...?

january:

brought in the new year with a..... bang
STAYED bang-ing

february:
buh-laaazed
still bang-ing
this time, it was mr. bo derryl james (bdj) gettin the business
made that junk official on the 8th... [(fuck. i think (sorry)]

march:
beefin with the chubster begins (to my knowledge)
my african bruhthuh and i became inseparable.
tongue... pierced

april:
BAD month.
tongue ring... out.

may:
prom with bdj and bops
introduction to his & hers :]
tatted (twice)

june:
graduation
fucken warehouse.
growwwwn (not really)
1st sonic trip

july:
1st break-up with bdj (lol i was so burnt for that)
STAYED partying
saved bo derryl's life
fell in love with shawn chrystopher

august:
the WORST month of the year
met julieanne tho :)
got a little too skinny.

september:
chillennnn waaay too much... (sike there's never too much)
'ended it' with the love(r) ha....
fell in love with shwayze
moved away
began beasting san diego

october:
realized roller blades are the DEVIL.
met and became friends with waaay too many people
tongue ring BACK in action
brought my filipinhoe friend to LA to do some visiting

november:
history was made
me and SD fb bang
ucsd began raping me (with no lube)
came home for turkey day
accepted the fact that bo derryl and i can't be fully happy w/o each other

december:
met K :}
finals raped me
lost the urge to speak to bdj
went to the bay
hoped to be nia long's character in Love Jones one day
turned 18

in the midst of all these activities... lovin chillen and partyin were all present, damn near daily. i'm hiiiiiighly pleased with the outcome of this year... i feel like i matured sooo much, and was able to see the growth in myself. how wonderful would it be to start off 09 with no tension, stress or negative emotions...?

i'll be back to answer that.

Apparent African-ness

for those wondering why i look nothing like my mom....

it's cuz i'm my dad's mini clone...




i didn't really realize it til i took a look at my old grad photo and one from like... 2 days ago.

been spendin a bunch of time with the family this week... tryna sneak in little visits here && there with the buddies.

last night was successful :]

"Never Keep Squares In Your Circle"

(strrraight from http://www.candiedjamz.com/)

yeaaa tried to add it to the blog list, but blogspot wasn't havin it.

anyways.

i could NOT sleep last night at ALL.

i absolutely hate when people underestimate me... or assume they know me better than i know myself... ORRR assume i'm bullshitting when i say i'm going to do something. What oftentimes results in me proving someone wrong (//proving myself RIGHT) is the person-- 'dickhead', if you will-- becomes unhappy...

HOWEVER

this time is one of those few times where my decision (that i still support despite my lack of sleep) has negatively affected me too.

ahp well. nothing a session and a little *distraction* can't cure :]


ahh that picture was the beginning of my lovely trip to the bay with tirSLUT :]

we ended up fucken with 30 bleezes the next night. it was too ridiculous....

random quotes that only 2 or 3 people will understand:

"piiiipe?"

"fuck that, i know the REAL baby smokes"

"how yo music STILL playin??"

"i'm not no weedhead-- i just know some shit about logic."

"toe-may-toe-bath."

"that shit look like a prom picture...''

"i wanna be ONNNNNNNNNNN *yak*"

Damn Man..

everyone's BROKE.

i wanna do more shopping but no one's having it.

oh well i guess it's a hair flip. (even tho i don't have my trusty weave installed at the moment)

so anyways... i suck at watching movies... i'm guessing it's cuz i have a short ass attention span. but i saw

Love Jones

for the first time and i helllla fell in love with that movie...

is it cuz i was baked when i watched it? mayyyybe.... but i was diggin the junk out of it cuz it was soooo realistic.

ahh what would life be like if the rest of the world and i didn't play games?

i feel like i already have an advantage over a lot of soft-spoken people because when i care about something, i'm gonna speak about it...

but as corny muhfuckuhs say.... 'actions speak louder than words.'

i'm definitely not gonna act like i haven't been the bad guy as far as dudes' feelings go, but what i am sayin isssss:

things would be so much simpler if people were just upfront about their feelings and motives.

simpler... but not nearly as fun.

San Fran Sletttt

18

SHAKE IT

this is a preview of what attallah, tirsit, and i will be doing in San Fran these next couple days.



:]

i plan on gittin it JUST as hard as the one in the white is...

I'm Sore

these socks spurred it all... tricky things.*thumbs up and a wink*

[the capital of poland is warsaw]

btw... the SD breezie blogs. [yea that means click it] i like to take credit for unknowingly influencing that layout. my steez has been STOLEN. jusssst joshin. she's my filipinhoe.

some shit that's been circling in my noggin...

you never forget who your number one is. they make it hard to remember anyone else.

it's imperative that it's mutual tho... or else you set yourself up to be played... be confident with where you and the one you love stand. and don't forget your agreements and promises... they're made for a reason...

u don't wanna be a victim of this particular agreement, would you?:

*takes place some time before saaaaay... one of these two leave for a long trip*
"attractive male: u think we should have a nice open relationship?
attractive male: cause i kno i will always put u b4 anybody else
fine young lady: yea same here
fine young lady: but define open...
attractive male: everybody else pretty much gets played
fine young lady: lmao"

then again... how would you know?

it's really easy to get caught up in some dumb shit...

really... easy

There's Dried NUT On My Blanket :-{

coooooooool ass session last night.

there was ONE thing missing tho.

spent 75 big ones at victoria's secret on a sexy set... my birthday night is gonna be too hectic but i'm definitely lookin forward to it, even if everything doesn't go down exactly how it was planned.

just tryna show off my pricey knickers

:]

i'm a mess. levis (hoodie and jeans), american apparel (shirt) & urban outfitters (chucks). but... what's the point of owning clothes if you cant make em your own?

Go To Sleep Hoe

my cousin comes to town today...

fight for my honda is on...

i had Fat deleted on my b.l. on aim for a while... i got bored waitin on the bop... i re-added the sloppy thing...

'what's this? for meeee?' <--- that was my brain's reaction.

corrected the typo... you know... cuz no one likes looking uneducated after a certain age.... just some shit i noticed...

back to-- wherever deleted aim names end up-- that one goes...

i'm sleepy now... ionno what imma do tomorrow, but i DO know i'm excited to go up to the bay for FREE :]

may pay K, (3-8 am guy) a visit while i'm at it. indeed. sleeeeep time...

RIP, E

i left it in Richard's car... that's worse than leavin my ihome somewhere other than the place im gonna be stationed at for a few days

damnn that took a lot of words to say a little.

just kiiiinda bent from earlier.... :}

No More Tears by teedra moses samples SpottieOttieDopaliscious.... i wonder how many people knew that.

the things you notice after a super session.

birthday's next saturday. excited and stretching for it :]

sposed to be goin to the bay this wednesday til then though. i can't imagine not being home for my birthday... that's kinda weird. but point isssss i'll be celebrating in LA with a few of the closest compadres.

went from half tank to *gas light* today. glad abt these 'crack prices'

i'm so sleepy. i like the way my first full day in LA has been so far. it honestly made me look forward to the next couple weeks

Comin Home Again (sing it like kanye's Homecoming)

imma be home tonight!!
thanks to good ol richard... :]

so imma be there a month... but i haven't started packing yet aaaaaaand i have a final tonight... so i'm kiiinda low on time BUT i got time to blog aimlessly, of course.

guess my point is: i'm excited.

young ass is turnin 18 in 10 days. finally wtfff

Don't I Have Finals Tomorrow?

cool people really do still exist.

i didn't sleep last night... spent all night outside on some stairs, talkin to one of em. sun rose.... convo was still goin. took a nap. woke up and started up again.

i love kiggin it with new people.

i provided the company last night. look at me networking in SD :]

i wonder what J was doing with his friend in her dorm room... :-X

anyways, it was cool to talk to someone who didn't turn the conversation into a sex discussion like most of the other lames out here do. to be able to talk to someone from 3 to 8 am says a lot to me. i think it's pretty tight actually.

too bad he doesn't live out here. ahp well

back to 'confused' san diego dudes.

My Tattoo Itches.

not all girls with tongue rings suck dick... but 9 times outta 10... they do...

but that makes dudes kinda dumb for getting juiced about meeting a girl with a tongue piercing... cuz if she'll willingly suck u up with that ring... it's more than likely to have rubbed up and down another guy's penis. chances of her sterilizing that little silver ball after issuing some crucial head is, i'd say.... unlikely

ahh. if this (fully) applied to me, i definitely woulnd't be posting this... i'm a little more paranoid than the average germophobe.

so then my mind wandered to a completely unrelated subject...

and....

i think the chances of me being able to identify Asians by their native countries (ie... being able to say 'that girl isn't chinese-- she's taiwanese') are about equal to some Asian American being able to say 'hey... that man isn't just african... he's ghanaian.'

point is...

well i guess i don't have one :]

SD Makes Me Think...

what's worse? watching someone trip in silence... or watching them trip and make an 'aw i almost fell in front of everyone' noise? and by 'worse'... i definitely mean 'funnier'

automatic doors are inconvenient when you're rushing.... or running.

i always like to get on elevators hoping someone who DESPERATELY needs to get on misses it... allowing everyone inside to see their helpless face **sloooooowly** disappear as the doors close... it makes me laugh...

:]

Hm.

the difference between the amtrak station in Solana Beach... and Downtown LA...

Solana Beach

Los Angeles: hm... this bird must be lost

i had a cooool little visit back at home... i love going home; im not expected to do ANYTHING now. i decided to wash the dishes after Thanksgiving dinner cuz i wasn't tryna go directly to sleep + a sink full of dirty dishes kinda irks me... i damn near gave my mom a heart attack. she was waaaaay too juiced that i was doin 'chores' on my trip home.

attanigga saved my thanksgiving. ahhhhh RIP A :[

yesterday was pretty tight... i saw BOLT in 3D ahh that shit was tooo tight. made a porno too. just playinnnnn.... swear to blog. ah cha chahhh

Solana Beach: this shit looks sooo fake... but nope. it's just how white people live when niggers aren't watching.

Los Angeles: false alarm. this bird is a regular...

I'm Hooooome

this is the first time i'm in LA without an itinerary to follow since i left for SD. it feels super good right now...

my brother was soooo late picking me up from the train station. while waiting, i realized i have no idea what makes old black and hispanic men so uninhibited when it comes to talking to young women. the things they say are SO irksome and disgusting. 40 minutes of that was allllmost enough to put me in a bad mood, but i was tooo excited to be home :]

there was hella traffic. we got lost. ended up somewhere by hollywood bowl. stiiilll not enough to kill my mood lol cuz my brother is jokes too.

i got home and felt too collegiate. i got the 'welcome home :]' poster that my mom used to have me make for my older brothers and sister when they'd come back from college for vacations :]

*look atchuuuuuu*

i should be settin junk up for thanksgiving right now. i just don't feel like it; im tiiired, it's raining and i'm fiiiinally catchin up on my new music fetish under my warm blankets...

it's fun writing pointless things, knowing people are reading it... and that it's actually entertaining to them for the 2 minutes it may take em to read my posts...

'I Doubt You're Wrong'

LA was fun. i don't feel like explaining tho. i know that disappointed a few... *woops*

didju know i average 21 readers daily...?

lol i think that's pretty weird... but hey-- that means i have at least 15 more fans than you do.

i'm supposed to go home tomorrow lol but i don't think that's happening... maybe my brother'll pick me up...

btw... guess who the eff has a blog now... the fly guys.

go ahead && click on it... they're cooler than you.

it's cold today && i'm feeling a tad bit sick... scarf season. indeeeed it is
look, im not smiling this time...

YAY!

LA today :]

yea yea yea yea yeaaa yeaaaaa

btw. i pretty much hate 'reality show' on t-pain's new album. it's pretty terrible.

ps. i will be blasted ALL weekend. oh yes.

He Lives In My Lap.

"elize... why do all your pictures look hella alike?"

and i must reply...

"blog follower... why do you continue to read my random rants and look at my boredom-inspired photos?"

i liteweight don't even think i would read my own blog if i was some random person... i blog about random shit... a small portion of the time, only 1 or 2 ppl know exactly what i'm talking about in my posts... burritos... fat girls... chillen... sexxin... college-in... yea... a bunch of 'lun' type things.

tonight was too much fun tho. lol kiggin it with all the SD breezies was jooookes.

"wanna go to the store?!"

i'm gonna be in LA this weekend for this SOCC stuff. right by hebe's casa... aaaand the two eldest brothers are comin to visit :-D

juiced? indeed.

Que, Hombre?

so... you tell me wtf i'm supposed to do with a burrito this big.

my school is wildin... smh... this is how people get obese...

You Already Know...

no homo, yes on 8, and all those other disclaimers. she really does have one of the nicest asses i've seen. kudos to her, i'm impressed.

Never Mind!

i don't wanna quit school anymore

study session with the dude i'm diggin went well.

ended with a chillen session at his place... aaand me returnin to campus... right now.

i refuse to let another math midterm rape me.

man... i don't even know if/when i'm coming home for thanksgiving break. i'm tryna kiggit with the brrreezies as soon as i get back to LA...

i'm gonna be in LA next weekend actually. SOCC... maybe something will go down then.

i really hate school.

i think i wanna quit.

Hella Jungle-ish

so after de-weaving myself... my roommate thought she'd seen it all.

SIKE.

my hair can definitely be super effin random. some days i definitely don't try.... i may give up the weave for a bit. i don't wanna have permanent chicken-head sides like so many other unfortunate weave-wearers i know... :[

(moment of silence for those follicles... dead... but never.... ever forgotten)

hold on.. lemme just touch on that real quick.

i never understood why girls/women/....men who get weaves, continue to get em knowing and seeing that their real hair is getting thinner && weaker && frail as f.ck with each new installation. 

i definitely know i'm not the only one who thinks about that.

anyways. i'm expecting a visit from an old fb some day soon. that should be fun-ish. next week i believe.

good shit.

Urban Outfitters: My Happiness.

so it's been forfuckenever. buuuut im back

lol a week, indeed.

i don't see the point of bloggin abt the past week && whatnot...

but this video had me lmao.

oh yeaa... i found happiness in a shirt i bought... i liked it... soooo i definitely ordered it.

Bye For A Week

soooo something made me stop blogging for a week... lmaoo i don't even mind. it kinda tainted blogspot for me.

enjoy me smirking, weavelessly. the back of my hair suffers from too much flatironing... niggalips definitely saw that process happening slowly... so did prudence (ahhhhhjkfjdf lmao)

bye for a week. :]

Hm...

there's something different about America today...

:]

what was i doing when our elected President was announced?

de-weaving myself.

packages 2 and 3 outta 4 came today...

american apparel and urban outfitters.

almost makes being broke worth it.

Voting Day Voting Day Voting Day!!!!!!!

oh yesssssssss

i'm too juiced. 

btw i think i just had the stomach flu. so i'm all good as of now. worst part about it was the crackhead-like chapped lips.

i think i'm gonna get an anxiety attack waiting for these voting results later on. pretty much everyone on my buddy list has stuff up about voting. i'm SOOOO effin jealous cuz i'm positive i know way more about the candidates and propositions than a good portion of em. but as long as it's 

For Obama 

YES on prop 2

a fat ass NO on prop 8, 

and a NOOOOO on 6! (basically legalizes racial profiling... looong ass story. take an ethnic studies course, do your research and think about who it's helping and who it's harming >:o)

i really don't mind all the others.

anyways. i'm hoping these voters will be smart (i'm so jealous of them)

I'm Ill

terribly ill.

at least my halloween was fun. didn't get in til like 5... 

but the lack of sleep probably spurred this fucken illness.

so it's like 5:10 and i've been layin in bed ALLLLL day.

still have enough strength to blog tho.

whatta junkie :]

Sigma Nurse

so i went to the party last night.

nurse e.

look at me.

i definitely have a quiz... in like an hour... but i'm just gettin in.

Was NOT Thinking

ionno what made me think it'd be okay for me to do all i did last night

i told myself i was gonna do a BIG ASS LIST of homework, cuz i'm hella behind...

instead... i went to pf changs for J's friend's birthday... then went back to campus... didn't do SHIT of my homework... && then my favorite niggers up here told us we should definitely go over their house to chill out && whatnot...

so me, hating homework... && J, loving a good time... decided to go. definitely didn't get back til 3 am. i have sooo much damn work to do...

BUT

there's a sigma party tonight.

call me Nurse E... bitches.

i REALLY. could not stop watching.

I Got A Visit

from my mom

:]

resulted in...

lotsa food.

a new digital camera 

printer

random clothes && scarves.

and happiness

(aww)

the tongue ring went unnoticed :]

yesssssss

J && E

'your dude's feelin me

and i'm diggin him back

leave us alone

&& he'll be diggin my back'
(kiiiinda inspired by the fly guys... no homo on their behalf)

i swear J && i bust the most random missions with the most random ppl. last night was an average wednesday... til we got bored... my buddy Sam was tryna get me to go to a kickback with him off campus at his friend's house, buuut public transportation is bad enough when ur not super faded. soooo i passed.

that left J && i bored, in her room... taking pictures lol (i won't post those)(no Koramo). we're chillen && whatnot... then a light bulb goes off in her head && she's like 'aww shit, imma hit up my friend Jamal && see what he's doing'

loooong story short... he brings 2 dudes, we kiggit, went downtown, hit up my first hookah bar (it's weird... its so light compared to.... well yea.), shot some pool (beasted), hit up in && out like riiight before closing, played some spades(like some niggers)... then returned home around 2-3 ish?

i have no idea why i enjoy meeting new people SO much... maybe i have a good streak... i haven't met anyone who disliked me after talkin to me for a few minutes. i'm just THAT charming :]

only thing that sucked is that i planned on gettin some songs from bo derryl but i wasn't even at my dorm when he hit me up. KAHHHHHH. i feel like i'm trapped in the land of 'forever' by chris brown and like.... 'can't believe it' by t-pain. lemme hear them songs bein blasted one more day in a row, && i'll die.

Silly Me

sooo the mother's coming THIS weekend...

trippennnn

i'm excited. :]

i didn't fail my bio midterm. i got a D. look at meeeeee

i enjoyed myself last night... didn't get up on the 2 dollar tuesday special tho lol

anyways. here's me && fnann from the other night's meeting... && then one with richard. i look so wholesome :]

Wow

who effin knows. there are some super incriminating pictures of me floating around facebook. i'm glad i wasn't tagged... cuz they're.... bad. this was me before my 'morning after' picture... 

asian && black connection... life of the party. indeed.

fuck

i feel soooo damn cracked out right now.

i can't get any new fuckin songs cuz im on campus.

ahhhdfjkdjfkkfgfkdgjnbfdgkjfgfgdijwkfmr

if someone sent me some songs i'm diggin, i'd be so effin happy right now.

i really started biting my nail outta frustration. (just one)

leg's twitchin

i'm like a fiend.

but i like 'heartless' by kanye west :]

e.

i've been humped

i party. i sleep in my clothes. i wake up in someone else's house. i come back. && i take pictures.

F

the things you say you do, i don't believe its true

i heard it all before

don't have the time for lies, i need a guy

who understands

on how to be a man, ain't afraid to show his love;

are u the guy that i can trust?

:]

answer: prrrrobably not.

my tongue's almost 100% ready for action... the lady said something abt not drinkin for some amount of time... i forgot what the time period was cuz i wan't really listening... neither were the breezies who went with me...

i'm hoping it was 6 days. 

i've basically failed like every assignment i've turned in so far lol including yesterday's midterm.

missed 2 quizzes, including a quiz this morning cuz i overslept... i was drugged offa nyquil. ionno why i'm taking college less seriously than high school. silly me. i think it's cuz i already know i'm smart as f.ck... assignments, lectures, papers, tests && quizzes irk me.

i write shit down here when i don't feel like thinking critically. so don't think this is a measure of my writing capabilities... else that'd make u the stoopid one :]

cheaaa that's it.

Lmao Don't Try So Hard...

ouuuu i'm back in the interesting ppl club...!

it was a rough 2 days.

so the dude i was diggin... then considered lame... then started diggin again (as of yesterday)... is still bein dug. 

i had fun with that nigger last night :]

i was studying like a LAME for like, 4 hours... then i got rescued... i definitely needed it.

i have a midterm TODAY. at 3 o' f.cking clock. i'm so mad at the stupid ass professor bitch. it's like tryna learn how to juggle from someone with ADHD... she knows what she's talkin abt, but she gets so damn excited abt cells && whatnot that she just goes off on these tangents.... kiiiiinda like this one. 

[random educational tidbit: the other professor here won a nobel prize last week. eff the glory-- that's a million big ones right there]

i'm really just procrastinating... feel free to stop reading riiiiight here.

can't wait to stunt on halloween.

nurse bettyyyy

equipped with fishnets && pumps.

SD, LA && Riverside...

imma need a patient.

i got one in mind tho :}

i just wanna *bump uglies*

that's allll

fuck. i guess i should study now.

or leave && get some food!

cheaaaaa

:}

Damn I Feel Dull!

my roommate says she hears whispers in the room. && footsteps. (toes cracking, to be precise) she's trippennnn.... i may have to pour some nyquil in her milk if that keeps up. put her ass to sleep.

this weekend should be interesting. party on friday... hiding the tongue ring from my mom saturday && sunday... even tho i clearly have a fat-girl lisp now.

monday evening. makin my move :]

i guess that's it.

how damn dull am i....? 

extremely, apparently. geez i might as well start blogging about my granny's cooking.

Aye

imma learn the dance to beyonce's single ladies song.

gimme a yr.

I'm Sooo Aware That I'm Late...

but this video is amazing. how relatable. i f.cking love gnarls barkley. this reinforced it.

Perrrrrfect

it's so damn cold && windy. i want my cuddle buddy back

:]

on another note. julieanne && i went to LA this weekend to surprise turky for her birthday at ucla :-D

ahhhh then we went && had ourselves a grand ol time. it was a bunch of us friday-saturday.

me

j

hebe

cristy

attanigga

ryan

marquise

josh (+ 4)

chris

tirsit

and a bunch of randoms celebrated like G's :]

popped j's herb cherrry *wooooooo* it was fun.

&& more importantly. guess who's baaaaaack!

the tongue ring. oh yes. yes it is

Stfu

shakespearean/ stupid/ unclear/ and fortune cookie- type language irks me.

say wtf u wanna say, in the simplest way possible.

my nice streak only lasted during my sleep yesterday lol i kinda knew that'd happen. i talk a lotttt of shit when i'm bored... and when i'm entertained too... so that's like, all the time

ppl like it... and unless you're Ellen, it's not possible to be funny without being mean. 

i don't mind tho :]

proly why i can't be interested in a guy that doesn't make me laugh. guys that aren't funny are sooooooooooooooooooooo dry. no matter how good they look. i don't fuck with em. this one dude is attempting to visit me TONIGHT. all the way from effin LA. sooo burnt. passing on that one.

imma be in LA fri-sun!!!!!!!!!!!!! i won't be having my car tho. but it's straight i doubt i'll be able to drive anyways. it's a celebration bitches, na'meeeeen...?

someone lemme know when they're sick of lookin at me... cuz this could go on daily.

whut. blood. ?.

not diggin that mustache-like discoloration too much. lol oh well

So I'm Being Nice Today

i made a bet that today, instead of being the rude person i oftentimes find myself portraying... i'm gonna be nice... to everyone :]

it's hard cuz the washer/dryer here fucked up a bunch of my clothes last night.... && some girl with super STANK breath sitting behind me STAYED yawning the entire math lecture.  so i'm not exactly in the best mood, but i got something riding on this bet so imma be a G and stick with it.... a nice G, that is.

i'm behind in reading for ethnic studies.... woopsies. i'm super looking forward to this weekend. FINALLY getting my tongue re-pierced after months of planning and having it never go thru.

cheaaaa && hopefully the hoe'n partner doesn't chicken out && gets her tat also :] 

pictures will definitely be up. for now... more boredom shots. cuz i know we all like to know what faces i make when i'm terribly unentertained. 

Marley Keeps Me In Line...

chiiil beeeitch (10:41:12 PM):	there's like a handful of cute guys out here
chiiil beeeitch (10:41:27 PM):	lol i was abt to go back to my old homewreckin ways duuude. i woulda hated myself
Marley! (10:42:05 PM):	lmao .. hahaha .. u cant b travelin to different cities homewreccin
chiiil beeeitch (10:42:17 PM):	lmao i know, im super leavin that in LA
	after describing my saturday night...
Marley! (11:02:08 PM):	lmao .. wtf u sleepin wit strangers n shit cuh.. u gotta come bacc home...