08 Is Over

damnnnn what happened this year with me...?

january:

brought in the new year with a..... bang
STAYED bang-ing

february:
buh-laaazed
still bang-ing
this time, it was mr. bo derryl james (bdj) gettin the business
made that junk official on the 8th... [(fuck. i think (sorry)]

march:
beefin with the chubster begins (to my knowledge)
my african bruhthuh and i became inseparable.
tongue... pierced

april:
BAD month.
tongue ring... out.

may:
prom with bdj and bops
introduction to his & hers :]
tatted (twice)

june:
graduation
fucken warehouse.
growwwwn (not really)
1st sonic trip

july:
1st break-up with bdj (lol i was so burnt for that)
STAYED partying
saved bo derryl's life
fell in love with shawn chrystopher

august:
the WORST month of the year
met julieanne tho :)
got a little too skinny.

september:
chillennnn waaay too much... (sike there's never too much)
'ended it' with the love(r) ha....
fell in love with shwayze
moved away
began beasting san diego

october:
realized roller blades are the DEVIL.
met and became friends with waaay too many people
tongue ring BACK in action
brought my filipinhoe friend to LA to do some visiting

november:
history was made
me and SD fb bang
ucsd began raping me (with no lube)
came home for turkey day
accepted the fact that bo derryl and i can't be fully happy w/o each other

december:
met K :}
finals raped me
lost the urge to speak to bdj
went to the bay
hoped to be nia long's character in Love Jones one day
turned 18

in the midst of all these activities... lovin chillen and partyin were all present, damn near daily. i'm hiiiiiighly pleased with the outcome of this year... i feel like i matured sooo much, and was able to see the growth in myself. how wonderful would it be to start off 09 with no tension, stress or negative emotions...?

i'll be back to answer that.

Apparent African-ness

for those wondering why i look nothing like my mom....

it's cuz i'm my dad's mini clone...




i didn't really realize it til i took a look at my old grad photo and one from like... 2 days ago.

been spendin a bunch of time with the family this week... tryna sneak in little visits here && there with the buddies.

last night was successful :]

"Never Keep Squares In Your Circle"

(strrraight from http://www.candiedjamz.com/)

yeaaa tried to add it to the blog list, but blogspot wasn't havin it.

anyways.

i could NOT sleep last night at ALL.

i absolutely hate when people underestimate me... or assume they know me better than i know myself... ORRR assume i'm bullshitting when i say i'm going to do something. What oftentimes results in me proving someone wrong (//proving myself RIGHT) is the person-- 'dickhead', if you will-- becomes unhappy...

HOWEVER

this time is one of those few times where my decision (that i still support despite my lack of sleep) has negatively affected me too.

ahp well. nothing a session and a little *distraction* can't cure :]


ahh that picture was the beginning of my lovely trip to the bay with tirSLUT :]

we ended up fucken with 30 bleezes the next night. it was too ridiculous....

random quotes that only 2 or 3 people will understand:

"piiiipe?"

"fuck that, i know the REAL baby smokes"

"how yo music STILL playin??"

"i'm not no weedhead-- i just know some shit about logic."

"toe-may-toe-bath."

"that shit look like a prom picture...''

"i wanna be ONNNNNNNNNNN *yak*"

Damn Man..

everyone's BROKE.

i wanna do more shopping but no one's having it.

oh well i guess it's a hair flip. (even tho i don't have my trusty weave installed at the moment)

so anyways... i suck at watching movies... i'm guessing it's cuz i have a short ass attention span. but i saw

Love Jones

for the first time and i helllla fell in love with that movie...

is it cuz i was baked when i watched it? mayyyybe.... but i was diggin the junk out of it cuz it was soooo realistic.

ahh what would life be like if the rest of the world and i didn't play games?

i feel like i already have an advantage over a lot of soft-spoken people because when i care about something, i'm gonna speak about it...

but as corny muhfuckuhs say.... 'actions speak louder than words.'

i'm definitely not gonna act like i haven't been the bad guy as far as dudes' feelings go, but what i am sayin isssss:

things would be so much simpler if people were just upfront about their feelings and motives.

simpler... but not nearly as fun.

San Fran Sletttt

18

SHAKE IT

this is a preview of what attallah, tirsit, and i will be doing in San Fran these next couple days.



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i plan on gittin it JUST as hard as the one in the white is...

I'm Sore

these socks spurred it all... tricky things.*thumbs up and a wink*

[the capital of poland is warsaw]

btw... the SD breezie blogs. [yea that means click it] i like to take credit for unknowingly influencing that layout. my steez has been STOLEN. jusssst joshin. she's my filipinhoe.

some shit that's been circling in my noggin...

you never forget who your number one is. they make it hard to remember anyone else.

it's imperative that it's mutual tho... or else you set yourself up to be played... be confident with where you and the one you love stand. and don't forget your agreements and promises... they're made for a reason...

u don't wanna be a victim of this particular agreement, would you?:

*takes place some time before saaaaay... one of these two leave for a long trip*
"attractive male: u think we should have a nice open relationship?
attractive male: cause i kno i will always put u b4 anybody else
fine young lady: yea same here
fine young lady: but define open...
attractive male: everybody else pretty much gets played
fine young lady: lmao"

then again... how would you know?

it's really easy to get caught up in some dumb shit...

really... easy

There's Dried NUT On My Blanket :-{

coooooooool ass session last night.

there was ONE thing missing tho.

spent 75 big ones at victoria's secret on a sexy set... my birthday night is gonna be too hectic but i'm definitely lookin forward to it, even if everything doesn't go down exactly how it was planned.

just tryna show off my pricey knickers

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i'm a mess. levis (hoodie and jeans), american apparel (shirt) & urban outfitters (chucks). but... what's the point of owning clothes if you cant make em your own?

Go To Sleep Hoe

my cousin comes to town today...

fight for my honda is on...

i had Fat deleted on my b.l. on aim for a while... i got bored waitin on the bop... i re-added the sloppy thing...

'what's this? for meeee?' <--- that was my brain's reaction.

corrected the typo... you know... cuz no one likes looking uneducated after a certain age.... just some shit i noticed...

back to-- wherever deleted aim names end up-- that one goes...

i'm sleepy now... ionno what imma do tomorrow, but i DO know i'm excited to go up to the bay for FREE :]

may pay K, (3-8 am guy) a visit while i'm at it. indeed. sleeeeep time...

RIP, E

i left it in Richard's car... that's worse than leavin my ihome somewhere other than the place im gonna be stationed at for a few days

damnn that took a lot of words to say a little.

just kiiiinda bent from earlier.... :}

No More Tears by teedra moses samples SpottieOttieDopaliscious.... i wonder how many people knew that.

the things you notice after a super session.

birthday's next saturday. excited and stretching for it :]

sposed to be goin to the bay this wednesday til then though. i can't imagine not being home for my birthday... that's kinda weird. but point isssss i'll be celebrating in LA with a few of the closest compadres.

went from half tank to *gas light* today. glad abt these 'crack prices'

i'm so sleepy. i like the way my first full day in LA has been so far. it honestly made me look forward to the next couple weeks

Comin Home Again (sing it like kanye's Homecoming)

imma be home tonight!!
thanks to good ol richard... :]

so imma be there a month... but i haven't started packing yet aaaaaaand i have a final tonight... so i'm kiiinda low on time BUT i got time to blog aimlessly, of course.

guess my point is: i'm excited.

young ass is turnin 18 in 10 days. finally wtfff

Don't I Have Finals Tomorrow?

cool people really do still exist.

i didn't sleep last night... spent all night outside on some stairs, talkin to one of em. sun rose.... convo was still goin. took a nap. woke up and started up again.

i love kiggin it with new people.

i provided the company last night. look at me networking in SD :]

i wonder what J was doing with his friend in her dorm room... :-X

anyways, it was cool to talk to someone who didn't turn the conversation into a sex discussion like most of the other lames out here do. to be able to talk to someone from 3 to 8 am says a lot to me. i think it's pretty tight actually.

too bad he doesn't live out here. ahp well

back to 'confused' san diego dudes.

My Tattoo Itches.

not all girls with tongue rings suck dick... but 9 times outta 10... they do...

but that makes dudes kinda dumb for getting juiced about meeting a girl with a tongue piercing... cuz if she'll willingly suck u up with that ring... it's more than likely to have rubbed up and down another guy's penis. chances of her sterilizing that little silver ball after issuing some crucial head is, i'd say.... unlikely

ahh. if this (fully) applied to me, i definitely woulnd't be posting this... i'm a little more paranoid than the average germophobe.

so then my mind wandered to a completely unrelated subject...

and....

i think the chances of me being able to identify Asians by their native countries (ie... being able to say 'that girl isn't chinese-- she's taiwanese') are about equal to some Asian American being able to say 'hey... that man isn't just african... he's ghanaian.'

point is...

well i guess i don't have one :]

SD Makes Me Think...

what's worse? watching someone trip in silence... or watching them trip and make an 'aw i almost fell in front of everyone' noise? and by 'worse'... i definitely mean 'funnier'

automatic doors are inconvenient when you're rushing.... or running.

i always like to get on elevators hoping someone who DESPERATELY needs to get on misses it... allowing everyone inside to see their helpless face **sloooooowly** disappear as the doors close... it makes me laugh...

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