So I've Decided

i'm not nearly as irked as i was a couple days ago.

i'm thoroughly amused now :]

the hoe'n partner and i have decided to lay low for a little bit but now i'm second-guessing that decision.

pshhh. cuz if we do that, then WE'LL just be bored... and all the junk-talkers are still gonna be talkin junk soooo, that makes zero sense.

anyways. i already know these last couple posts have been super vague... and i haven't explicitly stated what happened...

and i don't plan on it.

ooooweeee cuz blogs can be messy. PLUS i'm not tryna be marked with one of these disclaimers.

Man. How Am I Irked And Amused At The Same Time?

i've been havin stooopid shallow, pointless posts lately. ehhh i've been annoyed and kinda deciding if i'm tryna share my thoughts and shit with the internet world... buuuut i'm just annoyed. a tad faded. and am definitely not tryna start on my stats midterm studyin... so on that note....

people are full of shit and fail to realize it. It's just sittin there in ppl's guts waitin to come out. ppl have been spittin stooopid bullshit at me lately. i've been findin myself sittin there like... the fuck is this about...? how'd I end up being the one to personify the role of her down here in SD...

swear this shit is ridiculous... that one girl that lives the life that people assume is okay to stick their nose into. the one that'll speak to u on some friendly shit, not knowin u just got through spreadin some bullshit about me to some other Random who's off to spread that junk to 2 more people that i didn't even know existed.

i've been hearin that this shit is a form of flattery; knowin people care enough about you to try to BE you, but still never forget to throw burnt shit about you out there for unknown reasons...

blehhhh i don't buy it.

we grow up being taught to have opinions about every damn thing.

if i'm 5 years old... lmao why the fuck can't my favorite color be 'the rainbow'?

i swear in the second grade my teacher, Mrs. Takara dedicated HALF the day (yes, from recess ON) to a class experiment/survey.

'go around the classroom and try different types of apples. then tell others which type of apple is your favorite'

even back THEN i was like why the fuck is this important...?
swear on everything i voted 4 of em as my favorite...
anyways... back to my main point. when people act like they're the types that don't judge people 'like that', it just further proves my theory: people will embrace aspects of their personality that they find other people will like, and do their hardest to push aside and hide the qualities that they feel don't do anything to boost them up socially/politically/etc...

lately i've been comin across soooo many people who are on the fakest shit i've ever witnessed firsthand.

take me for a counter-example.

i already know i can be an asshole. that's not some shit that i'm gonna ever try to mask. i don't see why i would-- it's part of what makes me different from everyone else. i talk a bunch of shit. about everything. but i acknowledge that shit as well. people who i don't like KNOW i don't like them. but what i won't do is talk shit about an associate who has no idea i have a problem with them. because along with my asshole qualities are other aspects of my personality that aren't nearly as negative.

that's not to say i've never indulged in hellllla shit-talkin sessions (ALL middle school kids are stoooopid cruel), but its definitely some shit that i feel i outgrew. i don't see the point in sittin there talkin about someone else's life that doesn't have any direct affect on mine.
ionno man it just makes me happy that i have friends and people who i know will always be able to relate to me.
i wouldn't even say im 'going thru' anything. it's weird but i'm liteweight amused to see how far this shit will go...

i'm elize. and apparently, i'm popular.

This Is D.

the buddy who came by on friday and prevented me from dying of boredom :]

what a kind, kind gesture that was.

triple d is back :]

What...?

as many people know... (or maybe you don't)... it's pretty much illegal to download songs on college campuses... so i'd like to take the time out to give a great big appreciative THANK YOU to my brother's buddy djb, who consistently and happily provides this music junkie (me) with joints that satiate my random song cravings.

ps. the new fly guy mixtape SOMEHOW found its way into my itunes library... ionno how that junk happened... but since it was there.... i took a listen... and as usual it was worth the distraction (cuz i was homeworking at the time).

on a completely different note... THURSDAY... (orrr tomorrow if you're picky)... i'm gonna go see the breezie cross for her sorority at this one club... definitely lookin forward to that junk cuz staying on campus for too long is tooo depressing.

speaking/blogging of 'depressing'....

SOMEHOW i spent $1,000 in like... a week...

how the fuck did that happen....?

damn shopping...

Fmylife.com

fmylife.com .... it definitely makes me feel waaaaaay better about my day.

"Today, my on-and-off boyfriend of 8 years asked me to cheer him up. I told him that I'm in love with him. He said "Oh, I just wanted a blowjob." FML"

lmao this shit was so funny to me. ionno why it reminded me of my most recent ex... sounds like some shit he'd say... or think

"Today, I found out my teacher writes descriptions next to people's names on the register to remind him who people were. By mistake the descriptions appeared on the computer projector. Next to my name it said "Tubby". FML"

lmfaoo this... this was just funny.

It Runs In My Veins :]

sooo i believe i have strep throat again.

blehhhhhh fuck my life.

nahh not even, i'm not trippen cuz i got a cool ass surprise by my doctor and his 2 nurses...

i went to the Student Health building earlier today and had to keep gettin passed from nurse to nurse cuz they didn't know what was wrong with my throat/tonsils.

each one took my pulse first with the stethoscope and then through my wrist the good old fashioned way... each one asked if i was an athlete... so i gave em my 'hellll nah' response cuz i'm super far from an athlete at the moment...

(freshman 15 is having its way with me)

i finally get to see the doctor, who's some old nice white man... he goes through the saaame heart-rate procedure and asks me yet again if i play sports...

so this time i ask why, and he's like

'u have a real mellow, chill heartbeat that i usually don't come across very often'

before i took that junk as a compliment, i asked if that was good or bad. since i'm a healthy person overall, it's definitely not detrimental to my health...

veeeery long story short:

i'm a chill ass mellow person.. check my heartbeat... then:

fucks with me.

Stumbleupon.com

A few days ago, my roommate introduced me to the devil.

like, really... this shit is no joke....

she was procrastinating (as we usually do in suite 220) and she was like

'FUCK i can't get off this site...'

so i stupidly ask

'what site are u talking about?'

'stumbleupon.com... u click the little stumble button at the top corner and it leads you to the most RANDOM interesting sites in the entire internet...'

so i laugh at her cuz like wtf.... that's so gay... but then i opened my music homework and realized i didn't wanna start it... my laptop was open soooooo.... i payed her little site a visit.... terrible idea. an hour later my homework was NOT done, but i was sleepy as shit... so i went to bed.... WITHOUT finishing/(starting) my homework.... wtffff

well anyways... i clicked the stumble button and came upon this picture:



good ass question... i can't even begin to list the things i'd do. maybe in another post. gotta start this homework shit...

Since You Probably Aren't My Facebook Friend

here are 25 facts about me...

for some reason, people don't equate facebook 'notes' to myspace 'bulletins'

smh... if it's not one thing it's the other... ANYWAYS i gave into the little chain letter thang thang... there it goes...

1) I'm considering skipping my 'stats for psyc' class so i can complete this note

2) I am for SURE the laziest person i know... i have NO idea why i just can't bring myself to do things that aren't immediately pleasing. I used to get soooo mad at my mom when she'd call me lazy, but she just knew the real me before i did. this definitely applies to school work, homework, basically ANY work...

3) I believe being the youngest of 5 children [my oldest brother is 14 years older than me (YES, we all have the same parents)] plays a MAJOR role in the development of my selfishness. boy oh boy... not too many people notice it because, naturally, I don't just go around being stingy to strangers, but the ones who matter know it VERY well....

4) I'm scared to go back to my optometrist because i think next time i go, i'll be diagnosed as legally blind. without my contacts or glasses, i'm DONE for. just buy me a rocking chair, some yarn, and knitting needles riiiight now.

5) MYSPACE is probably the reason i'm mildly big-headed to this day. i got one when i was 13... (of course i had to subtract some years from my birthday so i could join back then) this was also when i had my first camera phone... boredom led to taking sickening amounts of face shots... which always found their way to my page... which then led to flocks of thirsties, commenting about how 'sexxii' 'fly' and 'bomb' i was. smh... oh myspace... the corruption...

6) I get very easily uninterested when it comes to guys in general... i guess a part of me believes there will be another one on his way shortly... that's kinda how it happens with me

7) I have a laissez-faire/'f.ck it' kinda attitude toward pretty much all aspects of life... like, really... some people are pretty intrigued by it... those are the people who don't make it very far in my social circle tho.

8) I think SO much. It's kinda weird because i'm very unobservant, but i tend to have a tighter grasp on most subjects that i DO bother caring about than other people i know.

9) For some reason, people emulate my actions, phrases, and humor... it used to irk me, but now when i notice it i'm like whatever... c l o n e...

10) I have a blog that i no longer advertise... WHY?! because ever since my FATHER, AUNT and other family members 35 years old+ got facebook accounts, i have no urge to.

11) I feel like a loser saying 'my blog' out loud.

12) My roommate, Adana has saved my educational life numerous times... i decided to take a nap before my ethnic studies final (cuz i'm THAT smart) and if she hadn't gotten me outta my deep ass slumber i prooobably woulda been posted at home RIGHT now in my PJ's watching maury.

13) Sometimes i feel like i have the answer to everything...

14) I had no interest in making new friends from ucsd when i got to college. i REALLY feel like my 5 best friends could not be any more custom-made to fit my everyday (null) trials and tribulations. Somehow i made a bunch of buddies here anyways. mm.

15) Networking OUTSIDE of school makes me tooo happy.

16) I wanna make babies with a tall, sexy, lean, dark skinned guy. i told someone that a couple months ago and i was called narcissistic. getoutmahfacehoe.

17) In ONE week, i've been called skinny, thick, and borderline fat. i guess i'm somewhere inbetween?

18) My *first love* moved BACK to CA to be with me... unfortunately for him i was preoccupied with my *second love*.... he moved back home without tellin me he was leaving :( naturally i felt terrible... it's pretty much the ONLY situation in my life that i choose not to analyze because i can't even begin to imagine the disappointment, pain, etc that he had to feel...

19) The easiest way to turn my positive mood into a negative one is by ignoring me. i HATE... DETEST... LOATHE being ignored by any and everyone... there's nothing worse than feeling invisible (in my opinion of course).

20) The first time i used my 'angry black woman face' was last quarter in my school's gigantic library. some bitch thought it'd be a good idea to eat baby carrots directly behind me.

21) I'm convinced Attallah, one of the 5 best buddies was meant to be my sister. I feel like if we had that blood connection, we'd be even bigger BAUCES than we already are. plus nothing would be able to separate us... because sisters HAVE to be close :) (note to self. find out attanigga's blood type.)

22) I plan on getting a humongous tattoo sometime reallll soon.

23) I am responsible for the death of 3 hamsters. (RIP Anni, Phil, and Nosey)

24) I can't imagine what kind of person I'd be if i wasn't raised by my mom. she's one of those parents who could care LESS about being their child's friend, but ironically my siblings and i can joke around with her just like we do with each other.

25) I'm kinda sad this list is done. BUT i'm juiced to read everyone else's random tidbits. TAG TIME!

I'm Laggin It

man oh man.

i haven't posted anything in a while...

because...

i've just been too scudded, to be honest

i suppose i'm not a fan of blown bloggin when i'm not bored...

haven't been bored in several days so... no posts...

easy peezy nice and easy...

did the usual weekend rounds and whatnot. i had a cool ass time...

pyahhh i'm out. it's lunch time.