Sourtoura.... Yeahh That's Wolof

It's a word in Wolof that i learned one night while i was
smokin a buuunch of african dro with my cousin... it was
like 4 or 5 am and we were faded outta our minds talkin
about a lotttt of different shit. the meaning of this one
word really left me breathless... it means basically,

'you're gonna get yours.. and I'm not trippen because God
sees all, so pray that you pay for all your misdeeds in
this lifetime, and not the next.'
     
                If you're deserving of reverence and
forgiveness then that will be the case. There's always a
plan and people forget that, or choose to ignore it because
of negativity stemming from whatever source individuals
choose to place the blame upon. You don't know how your
decisions now will affect your descendants later. or the
way YOU will pay for your actions after death. The
repercussions for our dumb actions always turn out the
same.

You do A, then B happens.

We all know and acknowledge that at one point in time, but
the way we act on it afterward is what is important to be
conscious of. Its so easy to be blinded. Things are simple,
but people just make shit so complicated. DO what the fuck
you know is right... if you know you're doing wrong shit,
then stop. duh. i almost wanna just pass out a flyer
reminding people of that shit.

                          Save yourself some stress,
"drama", heartbreak, etc.. follow your gut and actually pay
attention to signs that serve to lead you away from doin
dumb shit. Remember that the shit your friends and family
don't see are still bein seen by God. lmao allll the ppl
out there thinkin they're sneaky n shit are gonna be real
shocked in the end.. To me... i feel if your mind and
heart is in the right place, [my definition of 'the right
place' is hella thorough... but too long to type out right
now.] despite what you may be
doing, you're still in good standing. ONE instance is that
people now are so focused on getting money.
money money money money money.
when really, all that shit could mean NOTHING in a matter
of a second. then what have you worked for? Who are you,
without the chase for money instilled in you? who have you
betrayed thus far to get what you
hustled to get...? i definitely account for those who NEED
to hustle to make it. or those who have a hustle that
doesn't produce negative output... but... man...when you
put shit in perspective, some shit just doesnt seem worth
it in the end.
why pollute your life unnecessarily, and more importantly
at the expense of others?

I wonder what drives people to want to surround themselves
in dumb, unimportant shit. is it lack of information about
the state of the world? is there something that keeps them
from seeing that there are other options? do they just
believe differently than i do? I can't find the answer
out to be honest... but as i have always done and will
continue to do.. i'm going to reflect my thoughts in the
way i act, i'm not gonna be afraid to be myself no matter
what my mindset at any particular time is. no one's gonna
be Me for me. so i'm me, i have my homies, i got some herb,
i have my opinions, i have my family, and i have a tight
grasp on my beliefs... i voice em when i'm asked to. i
have an ultimate goal and i hope more people will open
their minds one day. 

Shit I've Noticed About Break-Ups...

girls always go into an immediate 'im happy as fuck' stage... n then the sadness slowwwwwly trickles in lol it's funny to observe

Written... 3 Days After I Got Back

LA seems a little lackluster to me ever since I got back.
I think I came back from such a beautiful, unforgettable
trip that I kinda expected everyone to be on the same page
as me, as opposed to doin the same shit. I have to remind
myself that I was only gone a month... 31 days... AND its
still summer vacation.
                    But my mind is so 'right' right now
that I feel that keepin up with my old routine would be a
waste of action. I wish I could hurry up and rush time and
get to doing what I'm meant to do, what I'm here to do.
But I also know the lost feeling I get when good times
rush by too quickly. Neutral times like these that kinda
have no connotation... always lead to deep thinking.
We choose what we want to think about when it comes down to
it. What keeps me a naturally open-minded person is
that I don't stop myself from thinking deeply about 
anything
positive, negative, outrageous, scary, doesn't matter. I
always just strive for honesty and truth. I feel like
nothing can move forward if its participants aren't
honest and truthful from the beginning.
From relationships, families, clubs, governments, cities,
countries.. shit
everyone. Dishonesty and close-mindedness are always at
the root of misfortune or negative occurrences in general.
Some people might and DO disagree with me, but that's
the way I look at it. I can't attribute these
characteristics to any one specific source.. and the main
reason people who disagree do is because of conflict of
religion..
or the set of morals in which they were brought up with.
I'm never afraid to listen to
anyone else's point of view on anything because listening
doesn't have the ability to sway my views.
Listening is listening, thinkng is thinking. The
two are linked, and to me, the amount of time you spend
thinking affects the way u listen. Those who are
mal-informed, un-informed or don't CARE to be informed
may.. only listen to certain stories on the news, ignore
major world events, and keep their thoughts on local shit
like work, school, their friends, their immediate families,
etc. Maybe they're afraid to listen and look at shit
on a bigger scale, or maybe they just don't want to...
It's those type of people I seemed to be steadily running
into before i left...
But I had just accepted that that
               was the reality of people everywhere.
But I went to Senegal and was sooo refreshed to find
that the mindset that I'd become so used to, was
left 17 hours away.
Things are slooowed down in Dakar; people are raised
knowing the value of remembering and respecting that
there is always a bigger picture.
I swear I fell in love with every new person I spoke to...
in a different way each time. The bullshit meaningless
conversations that are sadly considered normal over here,
completely lack substance out there. When u have to think
before u speak, it kinda shocks you into thinking about
all aspects and options possible before speaking on a
subject.
    I consider the people out there to be more
informed than people out here. This definitely isn't me
saying I'm on their side of the information...[pool...?]
At all. Or that they're better than Americans or anyone
else as a whole. I'm saying comin back to LA so
abruptly after spending a month in such an unknowingly
refreshing place threw me waaaay off. I'm not
excited to do the same shit I was just a month ago...
31 days... This shit is ridiculous... but I continue to
remain focused regardless of my views on other people,
because when it comes down to it, i know i have steps
that i need to be taking to move forward in life... and
these people out here back home could be looking at me
in the exact same way for all i know...
well anyways. i go back to SD in a month... I wonder
what I'll be saying then

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Geez

i haven't updated shit in like a month n a half... uhhhm. i went to Dakar, Senegal for a month...

and i really miss it :(

a LOT a lot.... like.... A LOT. i wanna go back as soon as i can...

anyways. new pictures. that seems to be all my blog is for now... womp.