Written... 3 Days After I Got Back

LA seems a little lackluster to me ever since I got back.
I think I came back from such a beautiful, unforgettable
trip that I kinda expected everyone to be on the same page
as me, as opposed to doin the same shit. I have to remind
myself that I was only gone a month... 31 days... AND its
still summer vacation.
                    But my mind is so 'right' right now
that I feel that keepin up with my old routine would be a
waste of action. I wish I could hurry up and rush time and
get to doing what I'm meant to do, what I'm here to do.
But I also know the lost feeling I get when good times
rush by too quickly. Neutral times like these that kinda
have no connotation... always lead to deep thinking.
We choose what we want to think about when it comes down to
it. What keeps me a naturally open-minded person is
that I don't stop myself from thinking deeply about 
anything
positive, negative, outrageous, scary, doesn't matter. I
always just strive for honesty and truth. I feel like
nothing can move forward if its participants aren't
honest and truthful from the beginning.
From relationships, families, clubs, governments, cities,
countries.. shit
everyone. Dishonesty and close-mindedness are always at
the root of misfortune or negative occurrences in general.
Some people might and DO disagree with me, but that's
the way I look at it. I can't attribute these
characteristics to any one specific source.. and the main
reason people who disagree do is because of conflict of
religion..
or the set of morals in which they were brought up with.
I'm never afraid to listen to
anyone else's point of view on anything because listening
doesn't have the ability to sway my views.
Listening is listening, thinkng is thinking. The
two are linked, and to me, the amount of time you spend
thinking affects the way u listen. Those who are
mal-informed, un-informed or don't CARE to be informed
may.. only listen to certain stories on the news, ignore
major world events, and keep their thoughts on local shit
like work, school, their friends, their immediate families,
etc. Maybe they're afraid to listen and look at shit
on a bigger scale, or maybe they just don't want to...
It's those type of people I seemed to be steadily running
into before i left...
But I had just accepted that that
               was the reality of people everywhere.
But I went to Senegal and was sooo refreshed to find
that the mindset that I'd become so used to, was
left 17 hours away.
Things are slooowed down in Dakar; people are raised
knowing the value of remembering and respecting that
there is always a bigger picture.
I swear I fell in love with every new person I spoke to...
in a different way each time. The bullshit meaningless
conversations that are sadly considered normal over here,
completely lack substance out there. When u have to think
before u speak, it kinda shocks you into thinking about
all aspects and options possible before speaking on a
subject.
    I consider the people out there to be more
informed than people out here. This definitely isn't me
saying I'm on their side of the information...[pool...?]
At all. Or that they're better than Americans or anyone
else as a whole. I'm saying comin back to LA so
abruptly after spending a month in such an unknowingly
refreshing place threw me waaaay off. I'm not
excited to do the same shit I was just a month ago...
31 days... This shit is ridiculous... but I continue to
remain focused regardless of my views on other people,
because when it comes down to it, i know i have steps
that i need to be taking to move forward in life... and
these people out here back home could be looking at me
in the exact same way for all i know...
well anyways. i go back to SD in a month... I wonder
what I'll be saying then

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