why do i even have this blog anymore ugh...

what'd i get on here to say....

i'm alive.
i'm 19.
i'm blessed.

i'm tryna focus on overall progression.
fuck digression.

i'm gettin grown.

sometimes i still wanna be a nomad tho.

i'm starting to wonder if everyone around me is changing or if it's me... but it has to be one of those...

i think i'm trying to find the key to happiness at this point tho...

but i'm still stuck lookin at the lock. heavy duty ass lock too...

but it's not all bad.. not half bad either....

cuz i got someone that reminds me how good shit is and can still get. i'm positive i never wanna lose that

i tried to write something, but i couldn't.

uhh... i would write something and look at it and disagree with it immediately after...

i definitely blame this Humanities class i'm taking... now i see ambiguity in EVERYTHING.

i see two sides to everything, and i feel like i can't pick a side when it comes to certain shit unless i've thoroughly thought about each argument.

it's like i'm developing a new way of thinking

it's like my mind is teething.

but i'm not necessarily mad about it. cuz i'm still me, i just have more thoughts. but naturally, deep thinking sparks emotions/feelings.

this week hasn't been the greatest.

but i'm cool.

JAY-Z WON'T PEER PRESSURE ME!

hahaha extra ass subject line....

anyways... i feel like his song 'Off That' just proves his point... he'll say some shit n all his smart ass fans/followers are gonna back him up... but simultaneously portray the people he's really talkin shit about in his songs...

...if you were still 'on' that before you heard Off That then you fall into that category.

iffff for some reason you don't fuck with every single thing he's 'off' without having tried that shit... (ie Crystal....)-- or maybe your favorite song happened to be a T-Pain song.... well shit now you can't tell your friends, and you gotta get a new car cd.... hahah mmm you fall into that category as well....

he's like shit, if yall are gonna follow me at least keep up-- we off that.....

allll this to say... i really like this song... it's sooo lame in relation to other music that's out right now... (it's auto-tune... and Jay-Z said we off that...) but fuck that... lol it makes me laugh... it's tight

she so fine

can you tell me why
why she's so fine
i want her to be my number one girrrl
i can see it in her eyes
(and im not too surprised--)
she wants me to spend more money on herrr

damn she makes me say:

"mmhm, mmhm"
(man she's so fine;)
all i wanna do is love her...
"mmhm, mhmm"
(man she's so fine--)
she got me to my last dollar