Cornball Steez

if i could go back && stop myself from entering a battle that wasn't meant for me in the 1st place, i would. i feel dumb that i was, in a sense, blinded && maybe put too much trust into one person's word. that was definitely my fault && i wish i could take back certain things i said, to an undeserving person. i feel kinda bad about jumping to conclusions before i clarified any details. it was quite careless of me && i'm sure my arrogance regarding the situation caused many laughs to someone who knew some things that i clearly didn't. granted, mistakes happen, but some can be prevented... like this one. i have a better understanding of things now && though my feelings toward em haven't changed, my perspective has

ANYYYYWHO

so i pick up the ex from the airport tonight. background info: we were going strong for over a year && a half... last summer he went on a vacation to visit his family in the mid-west (where he grew up til he was like 17) && decided to stay out there. we broke up cuz long distance things don't really work... && cuz i was crushed. that's definitely where most, if not all of my trust issues spurred && i didn't think i'd fully recover til i met back up with derryl. even though he was in a relationship at the time, being around him provided me an escape from all the things in my life that seemed to all be blending together. i found myself doing things that were out of character for me, just because they provided random thrills. but chillen with him became a favorite pastime of mine... i've known him for almost 3 years && here were are together now for almost half a year... so anyways... heartbreak led to... heart-mend... heart-fix? ionno what it's called but, i'm diggin it at the moment.

adios cuhhhh