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Budduh Makes Me Think Pt. 8,384,595,476

alright.... so this is gonna be a a long one....

i have 5 'best friends' that i will love til i effin die. i put 'best friends' in quotations ONLY because i feel gay as hell saying that term. i refer to em as my breezies, buddies, boppuhs, etc... so anyways, yeah. they're the ones who i can relate to when it comes to ANY subject... i'm super effin blessed to have them, but that's on some other shit; i'll save that for another day.

i think one of the reasons we're so close is that we see things in pretty much the exact same light... to be more specific, Attanigga, J and I pretty much have the same BRAIN when it comes to situations concerning guys. i honestly think it's our mindset that leads us to have so many close ass guy friends... i never thought abt it til i got to SD and realized some girls REALLY have noooo idea how to just sit back and calm the eff down... smh...

take this for example...

J and I had a session last night... she had a missed call from her sister... so after the session she calls her back and whatnot... and her sister is friggin bawwwwwling... she's cryin over her boyfriend... it's a saturday night and he's out with his friends, meanwhile she's having like, the worst night of her life... she calls him to talk to him about it in hopes of having a deep-ish discussion... she said when she called, he was consoling her and whatnot, but it sounded like she was being rushed off the phone. so that really hurt her feelings, made her mad, etc and she came to the conclusion that he's a super inconsiderate jerk and she definitely has the right to be upset at him... mmk.

so J... being the 'BAUCE' that she is, shares a bit of knowledge and reasoning that i noticed just happens to be stored in our minds naturally...

after several minutes of trying to calm her down she's like

"aye. u just gotta realize that girls and dudes are different. you can't expect him to react the same way u would in a situation. in his mind, he was being REAL considerate just by answering your call on a saturday night while he's out with his friends in the first place... on TOP of pausing his night, he attempts to calm u down and make u feel better instead of just sayin 'lemme call u back'... of course you're gonna be rushed off the phone, who would wanna have a deep ass discussion on a saturday night while they're out with their buddies and shit? ur trippen right now, just go to sleep."

i was sittin there posted like damn... most girls really DO act just like the ones that movies, shows, magazines, etc make fun of... helllllllla over-analyzing shit and getting butthurt super easily over small junk...

i'd like to thank the budduh and my role as the youngest child for my 'uhmm... fuck it' mindset... it's gotten me thus far, but probably led to the end of my last non-one-night 'romance'... my super understanding of other ppls' point of view most likely caused this feller to wanna see exactly where his limits were... in his mind i'm soooo sure he thought

'she's tight, she's not gonna trip if i bluh bluh bluh bluh bluh....'

in the words of Attanigga, most of the time 'i'm not trippen *shoulder shrug*' but everyone has a limit, no matter how much 'fuck it' they got in their system... the uncrossable 'line' just isn't visible upon first meeting me and my breezies... but those people who do know us super thoroughly know that yea.... 9 times outta 10 we're not trippen.

woooo. alright. lemme sit back now.

"I Fucks Wit Chu"

pretty much the most sincere compliment that i've been hearin from dudes lately.

it's a simple ass phrase... but definitely says a lot

:]

fucks with me

SD Makes Me Think... Pt. 2

my 'i'm thinking soooo hard' face...

man. this subject has crossed my mind like once a day for the past few years... lemme see if this junk can be verbalized..../typed.....

so as the good ol social construct goes: if you're a female and have 'a lot' of sex (who even came up with a sex measurement scale?) ... you're a hoe... however, if you're a male and have an equal amount of sex... you're just... doin you...

this always leads me to think about the difference between--for lack of a better, less played out word-- a 'player' and a 'hoe'. the former usually referring to males and the latter... females.

i guess what frustrates me is that these labels aren't going anywhere anytime soon.

say an attractive male and fine female meet, start talkin and realize they're diggin each other... but in the back of their minds, BOTH of them just wanna fuck. they don't speak on their intentions, but treat it just like any other 'boy meets girl' type situation... eventually, they fuck and slowly stop talking exclusively. neither of them are upset... matter of fact, both are quite content with the 'work' aaaand move on with whatever it was they were doing prior to meeting...

despite their parallel motives... to an outsider's eyes, it'll just look like the girl is a lowkey hoe OR the dude musta had helllllla game in order to get her to fuck that easily.

what im gettin at is that when it comes to females enjoying and exploring sex, no positive light is ever shone on them (us)... instead, negativity from others is attatched, somewhat expected and even worse, silently accepted.

sooooo i say.... fuck that...

if a dude and i get to 'workin' after only knowin each other for a short period of time, guaranteed his friends are gonna be slightly juiced, but at the same time, so are my buddies... we actually talk abt sexxin more than most males do... for example... a typical sunday night conversation:

		chiiilbeeeitch:				he better come thru while junk is freshly shaved and moisturized
		im tight cuh:				im saaayin tho Lol
		im tight cuh:				he won't be suckin titties if he doesn't come thru
		im tight cuh:				imma be like nah fuck that Lol
		chiiilbeeeitch:				lmao
		chiiilbeeeitch:				man titty suckin is only good like half the time
		chiiilbeeeitch:				that shit is a risk
		chiiilbeeeitch:				damn b cup boobies
		im tight cuh:				yeaa I feel u sometimes I'm like hmm okay this is wack lets move on
		chiiilbeeeitch:				lmao oh ok i thought big boobs meant guaranteed pleasure
		chiiilbeeeitch:				sometimes its tight, but it can go wrong easily
		chiiilbeeeitch:				and quickly
		chiiilbeeeitch:				and frequently
		im tight cuh:				nah it doesn't girl Lol
		im tight cuh:				like they have to hit the riiiight spot
		im tight cuh:				its more pleasure for them than us I think
		chiiilbeeeitch:				sooo they think sucking and tongue flickering feels bomb... lmao poor them
		im tight cuh:				I dunno its wutever to me Lol
		im tight cuh:				I be thinkin I am not ur mama
		im tight cuh:				get off my titties
		chiiilbeeeitch:				lmao
		im tight cuh:				Lol
		chiiilbeeeitch:				exactly
		im tight cuh:				______ was goin to wooork on my shit
		chiiilbeeeitch:				lmao was it tight?
		im tight cuh:				nah I thought he was dyin like he couldn't breath or sumshit. like i had to lift his head up to focus on other shit
		im tight cuh:				and he went right back down
		im tight cuh:				it was funny Lol
		chiiilbeeeitch:				lmaoooooo
		chiiilbeeeitch:				that shit is jokes
		chiiilbeeeitch:				they just get too juiced... smh...

maybe me and my buddies are rare breeds... but for those who don't wanna bother seeing things in a different light... i guess we're just a classic example of some LA hoes...

Lucky Number 7... Lol Fuck...

like most other cycles pertaining to potential victims go... i'm not diggin him anymore.

(we'll see how that goes in a couple days)

went to a party last night aaaand invited these guys right here, from the beach + company.

left the party and...... kicked it

:]

i think this winter is gonna be a repeat of last year's.

who doesn't like a little lovin...?

2 Weeks.... 6 Days...

so i got a new victim. i'm tryna get that muhfuckuhhh.

my close buddies laugh at me cuz it seems like im always tryna snatch some dude up after makin him my new goal... BUT only difference between me and most thirsties is that the dudes never realize it... been like that for a good couple years, after this dude bounced to the cornfields. bleh.

i got an eighth... 2 weeks ago...

but it's gone :[

however-- i'm pickin up with the new victim tonight...

ANYWAYS, The Pack came last night... i left my camera with the breezie lana cuz she was deaddd front center... after the show she comes up to me.... with a broken camera.... my broken camera...

ahp well. hopefully she got some good pictures outta it before it *magically* broke, i'm not trippen... i want a camcorder anyways.

it's early... i'm skippin class today... makin this shit a certified 4 day weekend... hopefully bringin it in with a bang :]

Plies... Beastly....

lmao so i'm in the car with some new SD buddies... and some random ass plies song comes on... i think it's called 'streetlights'... then i started dyinnn cuz of this line that's in a verse.

"i'm askin her bout her man and what he do-- he answer phones for a living... ain't that cute'

lol anyways.

i've been havin a cool ass time kiggin it with my SD alphas... something about attanigga and i... we fuck with black and gold...

i'm thinkin about embracing my boppuh title.... imma see how that goes... that shit is looking real promising to me right now

haven't uploaded any generic-lookin webcam pictures in a while... here goes one :]

Random Shit

man... chillen with andy and j is the funniest shit ever.



that's all. :]

LMAOOOO... ahhhhh.... fuck that was funny.

"Hmm... So Tell Me,

how's your love life going?''

so my suitemate was goin on abt some dude she talked to on the phone til 4 am bluh bluh bluh bluh bluh... and i was sittin there clearly uninterested, doing my homework and giving her 'mmhmm...'...

'oh noo...!' and

'really??' --

type responses til she finished her story... and then she asks me that question...

and i started laughing. lol i had NO answer for her whatsoever. i didn't even wanna think of where to begin so i just threw out some generic answer, tellin her abt some thirsty guys i have the displeasure of interacting with on and off campus... and continued on with my reading.

my love life... pah.

that shit is so complex... next time i get asked that, imma just refer that person to attallah... she could answer that for me... and throw in some of her own stories....

i'd probably explode if i didn't talk to her as much as i do... i'm gonna go ahead and assume it's just a 'brown people' type thing

anyways, my friends M & J have been doing their job wonderfully, and i'm too ready for this winter quarter... lol u can see it in my eyes :]

I Used To Think This Shit Was Toooo Corny

til i listened to the words...

lmao this song is joooookes... OPP... i forreal thought the last 'p' stood for 'property' for the longest... i'm like 15 years late and whatnot, but better late than never... this verse is tooo familiar lol and imma leave it at that... smh.. i feel him tho

This girl ah tried to OPP me
I had a girl and she knew that matter-of-fact my girl was partners
that
Had a fall out, disagreement, yeah an argument
She tried to do me so we did it in my apartment, bust it
That wasn't the thing it must have been the way she hit the ceiling
'Cos after that she kept on coming back and catchin' feelings
I said, "Let's go my girl is coming so you gotta leave"
She said, "Oh no, I love you Treach" I said, "Now child please"
You gots to leave, come grab your coat, right now you gotta go
I said now look you to the stairs and to the stairwindow
This was a thing, a little thing, you shouldn't have put your heart
'Cos you know I was OPP, hell from the very start
Come on, come on, now let me tell you what it's all about
When you get down, you can't go 'round runnin' off at the mouth
That's rule number one in this OPP establishment
You keep your mouth shut and it won't get back to her or him
Exciting isn't it, a special kinda business
Many of you will catch the same sorta OPP is you with
Him or her for sure is going to admit it
When OPP comes, damn-- skippy I'm with it

Back On The Plantation... AGAIN

damnn i haven't posted anything in a nice chunk of time...

new years eve/day was rrrreal fun... bullet points always get the job done, sooo

NYE:
-weiners
-shopping with tirslut & nigga
-Gi Gi.... (THAT bitch...)
-LAME function
-left that function 15 minutes after arriving
-3 bops punked the parkin guy for our money back + some :]
-attanigga's alpha cutie

12:00 am and on:
-usc party
-onnnnnnnnnn
-6' 7" cutie
-pumps offfff
-numbers exchanged numerous times
-:-X
-MISSIONS
-me and tirslut's turn
-2 more alpha cuties
-ihop
-home
-3 bops knock out on my california king.

ahhhhm i had a lottt of fun on new years eve/day... 2 days later, met up with the 6' 7" feller at another mansion party and kicked it a little bit...

damn i missed a bunch of details and left a lot of junk out but.... ahp well.

anyways. i'm back on the plantation and that's all that matters now. boutta pick my grades up with the help of my 2 close friends... M & J :]