it seems like 2009 was tryna teach me a lesson all year... like i was its special project... and at the end of the year, 2009 delivered that message up real crucially...
lemme try and put it clearly...
to everyone: please understand that you'll never ever ever ever be as important to me as i am to myself...... and i say that in the most respectful way imaginable tho...
(actually nah, i kinda meant to hurt a couple feelings with that one)
but seriously, if i learned one thing this year... it's that, shit... some things and people need to be let go in order to move forward and remain sane.
even tho i didn't expect it to happen, a couple of my best friends turned into strangers on me this year...
and whether or not i tried to salvage what remained of these friendships, some way or another i kept coming to the saaame conclusion. i'm definitely not gonna waste time and emotion on someone who doesn't want me around.... on someone who really doesn't give a fuck about what i have to offer.... whether it be weed or words.... lol jp abt the weed. but then again not really.
plainly put: if you don't want me in your life, i don't have to be there.
as far as my stranger best friends go.... i'd much rather be IN than out of their lives... but... i also understand that most times, growth comes with drastic change. so how long can i really allow myself to be upset upon finding out that i'm not a part of your progress...?
i can't be mad at all. cuz the last thing i'd want is someone tryna force their way into my life when i'm tryna focus on bettering myself.
soooo.... to 2009 and to old homies... bye. and thanks for the fun this year, i really enjoyed it
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I can't help but get hit by this post because I do feel like we aren't as close as we used to be, and that is my fault in more ways than one...and I admit that.
But like I told you, you're one of the most important people in my life and I don't wanna lose you or your valuable friendship.
I hope it's mendable (if that's a word lol) but in all seriousness, I'm truly sorry. I don't wanna be a stranger, nor do I want you to be one towards me either.
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